Humbled

Tonight I feel particularly lonely. Too tired to talk, much too tired to explain the vastly complex tangled web of situations that have brought me to this place. Yearning for help but feeling too tired to explain and even if I could feeling few, very few could understand. But then to tired to do hardly anything to distract or lull me into a pleasantly tired sleep. The only help really comes from knowing the God to whom I believe and to whom I never need to perform. Today and tonight especially I have felt humbled and laid low. Maybe there is a way forward from this.

The most beautiful thing in the world

Unconditional love is the most beautiful thing in the world. It is saying to somebody I don't mind how much you have hurt me, how cruel or sadistic you may have been or continue to be, how much you ignore me I will continue to love you and want the best for you. The book 'The Song of Songs' says that 'love is stronger than death'. I think that we need to make a distinction here. To say to somebody 'i'll die for you' when feelings are strong that is one thing. What about when those feelings die and there are no feelings or even feelings of revulsion. That is genuine love - it is the most beautiful thing in the world